Christmas and 2013

Well, I got an A in my first quarter back in school. That was a nice gift. Christmas is supposed to be a special time and it is. I have to say i love that my son got 3 things for christmas and was overjoyed at all of his things.  his pajamas were way too big,  his lego hulk came with the wrong pieces but he found the right ones in his drawer to make him whole. he put on his jammies and said they were comfy and warm.  sometimes i worry that he doesn't have enough compassion and then tonight he shows me how sweet and caring he really can be.  maybe I am doing something right?  I feel guilty for not being able to do more, but really he is happy to do things with his mom and dad and be together. this time of year is hard because we are usually tight on money till the next quarter starts.  We are lucky to have each other and a nice house though.  I could be sad that I lost my dad this year and I am far away from my mom who is recovering from breast cancer and my cousin who has been fighting colon cancer this year.  It has been a hard year but we got to Skype earlier. Although I miss my dad a lot, I know he is free from pain and with Aunt Bertie now.  I hope for a new year that we can maybe pay all the bills and always have enough food on the table. I hope for a year that we are not as sick and can maybe be a little more comfortable.  I wish for a good year for all my friends and family without as much hard times as this past year.  I remember christmas with my mom and grandparents and playing under the tree with my new toys and the colored lights in the living room and everyone sitting on the couch drinking egg nog and listening to christmas records. I hope that my son remembers his christmases fondly and that we have many more happy ones like this.